This world is hard

Today is day 5 of Malina's 6 day stay. She has been doing great and handling her chemo well. She did get a little sick Wednesday and again today. It is hard to watch her not feel well but it necer lasts long. Malina is now out playing with her nurse and care assistant. She just goes from person to person until they all get busy and send her back. Everyone loves her here and are so good to her.

When we first came in on Monday there were not very many people on this floor. Today, it seems like almost all the rooms are filled. My heart breaks as I see, what I assume, are new families coming in. I know not every person who comes here is new to this world but many are. Childhood cancer is not as rare as some think it is.

 Yesterday I saw a grandpa in the hallway talking on the phone and he lost it. I could hear his sobs and my heart broke. Just down the hall there was a room filled with family and a little boy laying in the hospital bed. Everyone was sad and hugging each other, many of them had tears. I saw a mother watch her little boy play in the play room. Her face was filled with love and concern. She looked scared.  A dad was trying to be strong but you could see the fear in his eyes as his world just changed forever. As parents we can't fix this with a kiss but we can comfort and be strong for our babies.

This world sucks. The cancer world is hard. There is so much negativity and sadness in this world. However, there is so much good and love that is also in the world of cancer. A friend of mine was in for her cancer check up this week and saw this saying on the wall:

What Cancer Cannot Do
It cannot cripple love.
It cannot shatter hope.
It cannot corrode faith.
It cannot destroy peace.
It cannot kill friendships.
It cannot suppress memories.
It cannot silence courage.
It cannot invade the soul.
It cannot steal eternal life.
It cannot conquer the Spirit.

I really like this. Cancer will only do what we allow it to do. This has not been an easy road for our family but I do know that we could not do this without each other and without our faith.